hmm....the feelings

have you ever feel being betrayed?or having some dissatisfaction with someone?hmm...it's hard to confess...but it's a lie if there isn't any....

well i have a lot ....but not all can be revealed here...ohh..
what's up with you people?!do you even care?all that you think is all about yourself!such a pathetic...!!!if you want people to respect you...you have to respect people first...don't ever think of jumping to the top by seeking people and just do nothing about it.....
duhh....think about it...don't just be selfish...it does not have any benefit AT ALL....HAHA..

wonder why i'm writing this...for that particular person...think maturedly....we are getting old...lol

when i.....

when i am tired of everything,my brain gets messed up and becoming abnormal..well i guess i just need a bit of therapy to release me from things that kept bothering me now and then..huh…the first one..shopping!!yeah..it’s the therapy for me ..shop shop shop till i drop..

yippee!!next…a vacation….especially,to the beach..beach beach beach..i love beach..!!!..hah.the second therapy is accomplished!yeah!.i got to soothe my inside…the wind that blew my hair perfectly told me that I'm at the right place..oh how i wish you were here with me…watching the early sunrise and late sunset is such captivating…wish one day i would come and watch those amazing thing with my dearly beloved….

even the vacay is not that long ,for me is more than enough…I'm desperate for therapy….lol…one more thing..I'm so tired with that particular female person that keeps bothering the hypothalamus and yes….maybe that particular persona is damn good enough,but to judge…it’s speechless..ha ha…
the most interesting part is…..I'm back from holiday and getting forward to shop till i drop……yikes!!!!can’t wait…………=D..jolly jolly…$$$$$$...just like what my bff said..'it's always sunny in a rich man's world'....

..i can be a shopaholic..

it's just the matter of how and when...

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should i....

how should i feel now??should i stay happy?should i feel sad?should i be calm and pretend that everything is alright?yes I'm OK,I'm cool.but why i don’t have a smile on my face?am i being influenced by Bella because Edward leaves her?the thing is I'm still in a relationship..maybe I'm too obsessed with it…that's the story that can cheer me up…

seriously i don’t know exactly what had happened to me…am i emo?or am i extra over double missing him..huuh..or am i too light?or too hard?damn i just don’t know..April is kinda weirdo to me..or maybe better…could have been better…couldn't be more unhappy if something happens..bla bla..i haven’t even decide yet where and how to organize myself after i’ve graduated…cheese,who am i?stupid stupid gee..how stupid i am..need some therapy….should i?